im just wondering

When the time comes through, the time when i can forget all the memorible moments i spent with you, when i can stand here, alone, with more strenght, more confident. but suddenly, unexpected, you walked by, smiled at me, we shook hands, asked each other about our life recently, and then these feelings, appeared to the surface when it supposed to be buried in the deepest of my heart. shit. all i wanna shout is shit!! why so easy?? why could we meet again? :( im still loving you, but im just hiding it from you and pretending like there is someone else fills up my heart..... you have a place in me, and you always do.

for you B, for you whom 2 years NEVER leave from mind.

some things to share.

hallo all howaryaaaa? did i miss something when offline? hahahaha okay i just want to post about my random's mind that surely running out in my head for these days.

lets flashback, i met my ex boyfriend at botani days ago, he is moreeeee handsome haha but it was like he didnt see me or perhaps he saw me but he didnt want to take a look at my face. i dont know whatev i dont hv any special feeling anymore.

and second, i just remember bout another one, why couldnt we be friend anymore? you probably feel ashame bout what you ve done to me but i just let you know im not mad at you. not!

and third, yeah im bored of being all alone. many people said when single we can make some relations without status with many boys. it just for a perfect girl, not an ugly one like meeeeeee, im perfectly imperfect. yeah i am.

and fourth, i feel a little disappointed..... um maybe more about my midtest result! imagine out, ive never got 68 for my bahasa test in my life, and it happened in this term. sucks. and about my social test? oh its not to be asked anymore, 74 for my score. think it, my social test (that at that time i didnt study hard) is better than my bahasa score! unbelievable but yaaa thats the fact. but i can be a little bit proud of my science score, its 88 :) its very cool, ive never expected before hahaha. ok, lets we talk bout my math, hey math! howarya?? -____- actually its not bad, 82 for my test. but it still cant help me to reach the KKM (wht in english? -_-) yeeaaaaah it makes me feel saaaaaaaad and it means i must study hard for the remedial later, freakin' lazy :( ya just that i know, for others are still waiting, it will be revealed.

fifth, its a happy news!! hahahaahahahaha i have many new friends in my eden class, finally i can join with them all, they re all amazing! who are going to be.......... lets we talk one by one, ka muti, she is the cutest and the friendliest of all, she is a little chinese (maybe) haha she is the first person who greets me and talks to me. second one, ka alpian, he is chinese haha and handsome haha he is cool, ah im sudden speechless when i think bout him (......) third one, ka anelis! she is the most beautiful i think hehe i love to see her face, i envy her. the fourth and fifth one are goin to be ka dira and ka hanna! oh goshhhhh they can speak english well and fluently, the accent, like a western one. i love it! hope someday my english will be like them! they looks like close each other, and lately i know they do study in the same school, Regina Pacis. its not too far from my school. and one more thing, the most suprising me so much, they are all highschool student! ok fix im the only white-blue student -____-

ok enough for this all, i dont know what to be posted anymoreeeeeeeeeee. thanks for reading~

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mudik

halo semuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa hahaha sekarang gue lagi di Sukabumi nih lebaran hari pertama disini, terus nanti lanjut lagi ke Lampung huhu tunggu aja deh update selanjutnya yah byeeeeeeeeeee salam cinta hahaha

fool me. playing with flower

this is holiday. this is boring. this is who the real i am in the condition like this. i have nothing to do so taking some pictures succeed boost my mood anyway....

just wanna say

I LOVE PINK

i met 'them'

ga nyangka banget banget dan banget gue bertemu temen lama gue Robiah di angkot!! hahaha sumpah ya angkot dibogor banyak tapi ko kita bisa satu angkot? ehm hahaha jadi sih pertamanya gue abis nonton anak perkusi kelas gue lagi latihan, nah terus sebenernya sih ga pengen balik dulu tapi karena hari semakin panas daripada lebih panas lagi makanya gue pulang duluan, dan pas lagi nunggu angkot, dia memanggil gue dengan teriak pas gue nengok gimana gue ga kaget ketemu dia soalnya udah sangat lama tidak jumpa, terus gue lari deh ke itu angkot kaya orang gila *lebs* haha lalu di angkot kita bercerita tentang kehidupan masing2, ehm ya gue cerita aja gimana sekarang gue di spensa dll. oh ya ternyata oh ternyata dia pengen les di daerah merdeka. alhasil dia turun angkot dulu huhu padahal teh masih kangennya pake bangeeeeeeeet!!

nah, the second story. gue bertemu mantan kecengan gue, ehm gue suka sama dia hampir 2 thn dan udah hampir berhasil ngelupain tapi ternyata kita dipertemukan lagi dan gue inget lagi deh jadinya -_- em engga deng gue udah ga ada perasan apa2 sebenernya sama dia hehehe, gue ga bisa kasih tau siapa namanya karena gue yakin pasti terlalu frontal banget yah. ok dari awal, jadi gue itu mau siap siap latihan ensemble sama anak kelas gue untuk pagelaran, dan pelatihnya pun sudah datang tapi anak2nya pada ga tau kemana, yaudah pertama kita cari aryo. katanya mew sih dia di BC makanya kita berniat nyamperin dia ke BC, sebenernya si mew yang niat sih gue mah engga soalnya cuaca udah mendung terus gue males jalan hehe *pemalas*. tapi karena gue juga kasian sm si mew kalo harus sendiri ke BC gue pun ikut deh! terus pas sampe BC, gue bener bener kaget setengah mampus liat segerombolan anak sma lagi nongkrong disitu, kenapa kaget? ya karena salah satunya ada mantan kecengan gue itu, si B (inisial aje ya) oh gosh!!! kurang lebih 2 tahun gue ga ketemu dia gimana ga kaget coba ketemu lagi? dan sekarang dia udah....... SMA. haha inget banget waktu cerita gue sama dia pas kelas 7 dan dia kelas 8. nah terus gue berani aja tuh ngeliatin muka dia, dan dia juga senyumin gue, dia senyumin gue!! dia senyum manisbanget lagi, dia juga jadi tambah ganteng deg huhu kenapa ya gue ga bisa jadi sama dia..... *tampang melas* yaudah terus aja dia di luar dan gue di dalem, sampai akhirnya gue keluar dari BC deh, gue sih berharap dia manggil gue atau apalah ngajak ngobrol tapi ternyata tidak, gapapa dia inget dan senyumin gue aja gue udah bahagia kok hehehe

udahan yah cape ngetik dan bersiap untuk buka! byeeeeeeeeeeeee

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